Stats

Figuring out some math using online calculators and formulas.

Averagely have been consuming 2,500-3,250 calories per day. (No wonder I am fat!) I have no idea about my calorie expenditures, as I have never tracked those before.

Current weight 252.
Current BMI is 39 (Morbidly Obese).

Reality Sinks In.

I've set up a doctors appointment in a week or so to make sure that it's okay for me to go ahead and stridently try to lose weight. This is an important step that I think most people overlook. I know that I am sort of a special circumstance--I have a chronic illness--but I think that it is a good idea to make sure everything is running, ticking, and working correctly before jolting your system. And, I know that any kind of cut-back or change is going to spur a huge jolt to my body. I'm stuck in my ways! Sad, but I think we really all are.

For curiosity, I jotted down everything I ate/drank today. (And to be honest with you, I will probably end up mindlessly snacking tonight in front of the television.)

Beginning My Journey

I suppose I should start this post off with my reasons why I am starting this blog. Not to give you TMI, but this afternoon while I was showering, I looked down and saw my tummy, not my toes. At first my reaction was that this was normal. Yes, I sighed loudly and felt bad, but hey, this was just how my life was. I am fat. And that's just how life is. But, wait, that's not true. I did this to myself. Not being able to see past your gut and to your pretty painted toes is just plain sad.

Standing under the hot water, I decided that there is no more excuses. I have nearly one hundred pounds to lost to be in my healthy weight range and that's my goal. Not just to be thin, but to be healthy. Surely I could lose weight on a crazy diet, or by hurting my body with starvation, or whatever else crazy information I could find out there...but that's not what I am going to do.

For once, I am not going to take the easy way out. It will not be a cakewalk. (Yes, I am already thinking about cake and I'm only twenty minutes into this life change.) It will probably seem impossible. I will probably cry. A lot. And maybe yell a little bit. Regardless, I want to do this. I need to do this. This is my journey to lose weight, get fit, become healthier, become more balanced, and hopefully, find my "happy" again.

If anyone is reading, are you on your own journey? What's your story? Are you also tired of always grabbing your "fat jeans" because the others won't fit? Any advice for a newbie finally taking her life in her own hands? :)