Fitness Deck

What I am doing right now (instead of sleeping) is making a Fitness Deck. I am taking note cards and writing moves (stretches, cardio moves, strength training, etc.) on each of them (with directions if necessarily). I'm going to keep adding to the deck as I keep up my research. And during lame times of my day, commercials, or if I need a quick pick-me-up, I am going to shuffle up and draw out some cards.

Every little movement counts! :)

Moving Ever Forward.

This week has been a lot of ups and downs, but overall, it's been good! It's all a learning experience and I am truly learning so much. I have been over my totals all week, but I am learning to listen to my body more and my cravings less. Plus, hopefully after a doctor visit, I will figure out my blood sugar stuff and that'll make life easier as well! :)

I have been loading up on readings, magazines, and reading lots of personal weight loss stories for inspiration. It really gives me the right mindset and a lot of hope that with real hard work, I can do this!

I used to do Zumba 4-5 times a week (with the dvd system in my old, crickey house) and I've been missing it. I may go ahead and buy the system, because I miss it so much. And what you do in a class setting is so different from the dvds. Both are good and fun and a real workout, but I like the dvd moves and music better-ish? Because I don't own the dvds, I mostly just blare Today's HipHop/Rap/Pop and do the quintessential Zumba moves to them while dancing around my living room! (Great visual, huh?) I love dancing. I want to do a lot more of it and eventually want to take ballroom or social dance classes.

I find the more I think about my new healthy life style, the more I come up with lists of things I want to do but have always been wigged out by. I let my weight perpetually get the best of me. I won't get into it here, cause it'll be way to heavy for my high blood sugar state, but more on that later!

Beginning My Journey

I suppose I should start this post off with my reasons why I am starting this blog. Not to give you TMI, but this afternoon while I was showering, I looked down and saw my tummy, not my toes. At first my reaction was that this was normal. Yes, I sighed loudly and felt bad, but hey, this was just how my life was. I am fat. And that's just how life is. But, wait, that's not true. I did this to myself. Not being able to see past your gut and to your pretty painted toes is just plain sad.

Standing under the hot water, I decided that there is no more excuses. I have nearly one hundred pounds to lost to be in my healthy weight range and that's my goal. Not just to be thin, but to be healthy. Surely I could lose weight on a crazy diet, or by hurting my body with starvation, or whatever else crazy information I could find out there...but that's not what I am going to do.

For once, I am not going to take the easy way out. It will not be a cakewalk. (Yes, I am already thinking about cake and I'm only twenty minutes into this life change.) It will probably seem impossible. I will probably cry. A lot. And maybe yell a little bit. Regardless, I want to do this. I need to do this. This is my journey to lose weight, get fit, become healthier, become more balanced, and hopefully, find my "happy" again.

If anyone is reading, are you on your own journey? What's your story? Are you also tired of always grabbing your "fat jeans" because the others won't fit? Any advice for a newbie finally taking her life in her own hands? :)