Moving Ever Forward.

This week has been a lot of ups and downs, but overall, it's been good! It's all a learning experience and I am truly learning so much. I have been over my totals all week, but I am learning to listen to my body more and my cravings less. Plus, hopefully after a doctor visit, I will figure out my blood sugar stuff and that'll make life easier as well! :)

I have been loading up on readings, magazines, and reading lots of personal weight loss stories for inspiration. It really gives me the right mindset and a lot of hope that with real hard work, I can do this!

I used to do Zumba 4-5 times a week (with the dvd system in my old, crickey house) and I've been missing it. I may go ahead and buy the system, because I miss it so much. And what you do in a class setting is so different from the dvds. Both are good and fun and a real workout, but I like the dvd moves and music better-ish? Because I don't own the dvds, I mostly just blare Today's HipHop/Rap/Pop and do the quintessential Zumba moves to them while dancing around my living room! (Great visual, huh?) I love dancing. I want to do a lot more of it and eventually want to take ballroom or social dance classes.

I find the more I think about my new healthy life style, the more I come up with lists of things I want to do but have always been wigged out by. I let my weight perpetually get the best of me. I won't get into it here, cause it'll be way to heavy for my high blood sugar state, but more on that later!

Stats

Figuring out some math using online calculators and formulas.

Averagely have been consuming 2,500-3,250 calories per day. (No wonder I am fat!) I have no idea about my calorie expenditures, as I have never tracked those before.

Current weight 252.
Current BMI is 39 (Morbidly Obese).

Reality Sinks In.

I've set up a doctors appointment in a week or so to make sure that it's okay for me to go ahead and stridently try to lose weight. This is an important step that I think most people overlook. I know that I am sort of a special circumstance--I have a chronic illness--but I think that it is a good idea to make sure everything is running, ticking, and working correctly before jolting your system. And, I know that any kind of cut-back or change is going to spur a huge jolt to my body. I'm stuck in my ways! Sad, but I think we really all are.

For curiosity, I jotted down everything I ate/drank today. (And to be honest with you, I will probably end up mindlessly snacking tonight in front of the television.)