Reality Sinks In.

I've set up a doctors appointment in a week or so to make sure that it's okay for me to go ahead and stridently try to lose weight. This is an important step that I think most people overlook. I know that I am sort of a special circumstance--I have a chronic illness--but I think that it is a good idea to make sure everything is running, ticking, and working correctly before jolting your system. And, I know that any kind of cut-back or change is going to spur a huge jolt to my body. I'm stuck in my ways! Sad, but I think we really all are.

For curiosity, I jotted down everything I ate/drank today. (And to be honest with you, I will probably end up mindlessly snacking tonight in front of the television.)


Here it is:

Multivitamin
4 slices of Bread
4 tbsp. Trader Joe's Pumpkin Butter
2 Sugar Cookies
2 slices homemade Meatloaf
1 cup DREAM Blends Almond, Cashew, and Hazelnut Drink
1 Banana
12 Trader Joe's Yogurt covered Almonds
1 cup Cucumber slices
2 Snicker Miniatures
10 tbsp. Hazelnut Coffee Creamer
18 fluid oz coffee (from K-Cups, no flavoring added)
33.8 fluid oz water
7 cans of Coke Cherry Zero

For a whopping total of 2,078 calories. And the worse is probably yet to come. Nighttime is my downfall. I have issues sleeping and I end up staying up watching movies, reading, or rearranging my furniture. Because I am up, I end up having another meal super late at night and then will make up for it in the morning with coffee to try to be energized. Its an endless cycle, so good sleep is on my wish list. That alone would knock out a ton of calories!

This alone is enough information to make me sick. And in that spirit, I'm going to watch the documentary film "Fat, Sick, And Nearly Dead" on Hulu.